there’s something that I feel today
something I haven’t felt in a long time
it’s like a noose around my neck
it’s snug
but it hasn’t suffocated me yet
this world and its entrapments
this world and its illusions
I can’t partake in this race
I can’t partake in this profound foolishness
I see you all walking
with your heads in the gutters
with your sorrows and guilt
with your emptiness and ploys
and I struggle
because being around you pulls me down
I don’t want to be in those gutters
believing that I’m on clouds
I have no room in me for deception
I have no energy for falsities
but you keep walking
and you keep spending
and I hope that your temporary joys
and man made highs
are enough to help you sleep
and I wonder
if your wanders
mean anything at all
and if you too are ever awake
with this noose of this world
struggling to rest
as you carry everyone’s pain
because I hope you’re not